39.3 Fever Talk | To find A Light In The Dark

 


I think that I talk the talk and walk the walk, that I practice what I preach when it comes to mental health and wellness, but on the flip side of that, there are moments of weakness that seem endless and hopeless—a time when I can't bring myself out of bed. I start to doubt myself and my strength.

Is it even worth it? How can I be an active community member when I'm semi-paralyzed in bed? Having a fever of 39.3 doesn't help, but is it why I'm having these thoughts? It would be easy to blame it on the fever; it's a viable logical reason.
Yet down inside, I know it's not why I'm giving up on myself and doubting everything. It may have triggered it, but I did all the messed-up thinking alone.

It's hard to find the light deep in the dark, but that's only because you're looking in the wrong place. The light will come from within; only you can ignite it and let it shine.

Easier said than done, I know. But take some comfort that it is possible and it is an option. The choice is yours. Nothing good was ever that easy. have faith in yourself and go for it. You will eventually surprise yourself and see that it was just a down moment on your ongoing life journey.

Remember, in difficult, challenging moments. You are never truly alone. 
Reach out, contact me, and I'll be there for you—best of luck to us all.

P.S. at the end of writing this, I'm glad to report that my fever has gone down, and I'll be okay. I need to eat! 

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